Do you meditate? I was afraid to start …

… let me explain … about 14 years ago, I was just about 2 years into a relationship with a guy … the honeymoon phase was over, the chemistry ran out … every weekend we would fight about god knows what … and I cried … A LOT!

After some time that smart guy suggested we should have started meditating … together …

because that seemed to be our last resort to see if we would have gotten over the hurdles … if we could have dig deeper …

I got scared like sh!t … my first thought was … “man, he was going to figure out what a bad person I was” (I used to be convinced that I was a really really terrible person)

I was like … “I better play along with him otherwise I might lose what we had … or even worse … I might lose him”😱

We decided on a meditation technique of the author who had convinced us …

By reading his book one part of me genuinely felt relief … I sensed there was freedom behind all those negative emotions, reactions, pain that I felt …

We started meditating …

I don’t want to be corny but meditation saved our relationship … I am still together with that guy (now married, poor thing – him, not me just kidding )

However, the best thing about meditation was that for the first time I was able to be an observer …. to wait … to be a silent witness … to respond not to react …

I can’t tell how grateful I am to be able to practice that powerful technique … it’s been giving me so much …

At one point a few years after our innitial start I was asked to lead online group meditations for Indian people living in the US and India …

Then I organized classes to teach people meditation …

I lead group meditations in the parks (that was the best thing!) as well as recorded some …

and I stopped meditating all together for a block of five years due to some life events … because I’m just a human …

Do you meditate?
And how?

Vulnerability hangover as Brene Brown named it …

I had a dream about creating a safe, loving, warm space for people to gather and share their stories … different ones … inspiring and vulnerable …
Why vulnerable, because by sharing what we feel it is hard, we see that the thing we feared holds no longer grip on us … with sharing we open our heart and connect to other people’s hearts and that is the best cure. I promise!

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Trust Tuesday: If you are depressed …

My dearest,

firstly forgive me for my radio silence … I moved house and it was really chaotic … so much so that I got sick which is not something I usually experience often … I know, such a spoiled person, aren’t I?  😀

I want to confess that I haven’t really got a clue what does depression really feels like because I’ve never experienced it first hand.

The closest I got was when I lived in a remote place in Canada surrounded by people who felt so different to me that I thought if that was going to last forever then I’d rather be dead! No kidding.

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#TrueTuesday: How to live in the now?

Today, 2 years ago a friend of mine died … while we were together. 😢

At the age of 38, his heart stopped in a blink of a second … there was no chance to say goodbye. I still remember waiting on a metro platform in the centre of Amsterdam and watching medical professionals trying to bring him to life. I just couldn’t imagine that he would never wake up again. It was unimaginable for me, I was desperately holding on to hope.
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A half-deaf participant or what change in your client’s life are you most proud of?

The other day I had a tough day, it wasn’t business related but still. Somehow the Universe wanted to cheer me up by sending a few touching feedbacks my way from my loving clients. They couldn’t have chosen a better day.

That made me ponder the questions: